Being constantly unwell is challenging, especially when it's invisible to others. Epilepsy is invisible until we have a seizure. Then we are treated differently, ignored, or made fun of by obtuse people. The worst is when people or friends become afraid of being around us. It's hard enough to go through a life-altering experience that makes you feel less than your "old" self. When the people you love confirm it with their actions you want to be transported back in time before epilepsy happened to you. After 30 years & 5 brain surgeries you'd think I would just give up when it becomes too tough, but I won't give epilepsy my life. Fuck that. I was made strong & I will act strong even if I don't feel it. People always remember the bad things, so I advise that you stop caring about other people's feelings so you can concentrate on YOU.